It’s raining now, plus, it’s a thunderstorm. I love it. I love thunderstorms. I can just sit, and watch as the lightning strikes across the dark sky. The beauty of it all just captivates me, captivates my soul. It’s exhilarating. I can just sit, and watch as the hours pass by, and I won’t get bored at all. It gives me time to reflect.

Hmms, this past week, there’s lessons all round, caleen and I keep on going late, and skipping lessons, cause, we just can’t seem to get up, and I still have to wake her up every single morning. She’s just such a pig! Haha.

MOS at Tuesday wasn’t really such a good experience. It is seriously overrated. It was super crowded, as well as boring, plus, the fashion sucked. , or maybe, it’s just me. And, the dance floor was so packed, and my toes got trampled over and over again. I didn’t had that much fun, or maybe I just need Irene with me. I do miss those times. Haha.

Caught over the hedge yesterday with maz and caleen. It was hilarious, plus, I totally adored hammie! He is just super cute and lovable! I do recommend the movie, get your inner child out. Haha. After that, we headed down to my house to watch some chickflicks. We definitely had a great time, we should do this more often.

Well, I so far had 3 sinful, sinful days, but with xuan, it was seriously fun and crappy, just what I needed, but gosh, we ate SO much. Haha.

I seriously can’t wait for the NINTH!! She’s coming back, FINALLY!! Late nights just talking, talking, and talking. I just miss her so much! There’s just so much going on. And, of course all the fun things that we’re going to do, not to mention crappy. ((: but, anything done with you guys is a bliss, and we will sure enjoy every moment of it.

My friend who remains un-named, she just took the plunge and like just a guy out and so on, you can imagine, cause she really like this guy that much and stuff. Well, things did not go well for her, and, she’s breaking down cause of this. I mean, I don’t really understand, why would you you sell yourself short for this guy. It’s his loss! You’re such a great girl, so yeah, stop fretting. i don't know how much of this i can actually take

call me old fashioned, but I like the guy taking all the initiatives, and even though I’m going gaga over a guy, I won’t do anything, cause, I just like the other person to take initiative, but, it’s just me.
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Am I reading too much into this? If I am, would you just burst this bubble that I’m currently in, I don’t wanna be led on like this, I mean, why I am I just giving my heart so easily like this? i mean, liking someone is okay, but going headoverheelsgaga over someone is certainly NOT okay. i'm never like this, but, then, what am i doing now. i just can't stop thinking, thinking. gosh, my heart is doing flip flops just thinking bout it.

I’m going insane. Crazy insane. Outrageously foolish. I never let myself get lost like this. Why now? Why ever?

And, I think I need to get over this, cause I seriously think it’s going no where. I’m getting pissed at myself now for letting this go out of hand. I mean, feelings can be controlled right?

But, I really hope that it all turns out for the best, and be still my heart.

Oh yeah, thanks for the teddy. I absolutely adore it. ((:

loves,

manda